"All I can do is be me, whoever that is"
--Dillion

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I am a lot of things, sometimes it drives me insane,and I think too much, but at the end of the day I am happy with who I am. I spend most of my time trying to understand this life, creating the person I would like to be, and learning. I always appreciate the little things, and I try to be better than, and to make better, the bad things.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Slow Down!

Wow! Life is so crazy right now! I have so much stuff going on! I'm going to Glenwood, then Greece, then school starts, then moving! It's great to have things to look forward to, but it is almost too hard to enjoy where you are at when you have so many exciting things in the future.

We found the coolest place to move and I am soo excited! It feels more like a house than an apartment and it feels so..surreal. I don't feel old enough to live like that. lol. I do absolutely love the apartment I'm in now though and I need to enjoy the time I have in it. I'm also kinda going to miss it but I just have to be so thankful that I had such an awesome first apartment then move on to bigger and better things. I will so miss the park and the Greenbelt though!

Anyway planning things is good and having things to look forward to makes life great and worth living. But I have to keep reminding myself to slow down and enjoy what is now. I'm so excited to be graduated, but I need to just enjoy every second of being in school. It's bad to always be somewhere else in your mind, or always wanting to be somewhere else. I need to enjoy every moment I'm in while I'm in it so I don't miss it. Basically I'm telling myself don't miss what's happening now because you're looking at whats next.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Something to Chew on

It is such a beautiful day! I am having such a great summer!
I had a blast at the Renaissance festival the other day. I cannot even believe how many people are kids inside. It is so fun! I found some of my favorite foods there! My consensus is it is a bunch of people who dress up in whatever they want, get drunk, and watch shows with humor that constantly crosses the line! haha. Can't wait to go back!

Something to think about:
Living with my boyfriend has been an absolute blast! We chose to get a two bedroom apartment because we wanted our own space. When I tell people we actually sleep in separate beds for the most part they all kinda have the same reaction. They think it's weird. I've never really thought about it, we just sleep better that way. We can spread out, get up as many times as we want, move all we want, really it's stress free not having to worry about bothering another person or being bothered. Right now it works out great, but I naturally assumed things would be different when we're married. Then I came across this article, and also a really interesting video about how 1 in 4 married couples sleep in different beds. I don't know how I feel about it in marriage, but I definitely know people who get better sleep are happier. I also know my parents didn't get along until they had separate houses! Where is the future going? Are we getting selfish and independent, or are we getting smarter and learning how to make things work? Here are some of the sources. What do you guys think about sleeping in separate beds? Do you think it is old-fashioned, or modern? Where do you think you would sleep better?

video: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21134540/vp/38411118#38411118
(More married couples sleeping apart)

Here are 4 articles on it:

http://www.therealestatebloggers.com/%20/housing-general/why-married-sleeping-seperately-is-changing-home-designs-in-us/

http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2007/04/23/earlyshow/health/main2715817.shtml

http://www.spaceandculture.org/2007/03/15/rewriting-marriage-two-beds-bedrooms-at-a-time

by Bruce Feiler

My grandparents had a secret. When I was growing up in Savannah, Ga., in the 1970s, my paternal grandparents lived in the house immediately behind us. (My uncle lived next door in a set-up my father likened to Faulkner.) But my grandparents did something in their otherwise typical suburban home that was always something of a mystery to me.

They slept in separate bedrooms.

I speculated that this bifurcated sleeping arrangement had something to do with Southern gentility, Papa’s late-night ham radio habit, or some unseen rift in their marriage. But since my parents slept in side-by-side twin beds, and my wife and I later chose a king-size mattress, I assumed separate bedrooms had gone the way of other bygone relics, like sleeping caps or corsets.

I was wrong. It turns out my grandparents were ahead of their time.

Nearly one in four American couples sleep in separate bedrooms or beds, the National Sleep Foundation reported in a 2005 survey. Recent studies in England and Japan have found similar results. And the National Association of Home Builders says it expects 60 percent of custom homes to have dual master bedrooms by 2015.

Even Hollywood is catching on. The former bodyguard for Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt told In Touch Weekly recently that the couple often sleeps in separate rooms. (Ms. Jolie informed Vanity Fair that the couple sometimes sleeps in one “giant bed” with their six children.) In Touch also reported this spring that five months after Kevin Jonas of the Jonas Brothers traded his purity ring for a wedding band, he was sleeping separately from his wife. The reason, a friend said: “He snores like a freight train.”



  • More couples are ending the nightly fight over snoring by sleeping  in separate bedrooms.



Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Blog number 2!

Hey! As you all know I love traveling and am very excited for my trip coming up soon! I started another blog just to write about my traveling experiences. I'd love it if you followed it! K, Love Care
http://discovertheadventure.blogspot.com/

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Rain lovely Rain


I am enjoying my summer so so much, and at the moment am absolutely pleased with this rain! It is beautiful outside, I wish I could freeze this picture forever: dark green, gray, a complete rainbow, and the most interesting glow of yellow from the sunset, all through a rainy haze. This summer I have done so many fun things and have relaxed at the same time! I can't wait for Greece!! Right now life is good, but there are still many things on my mind.

Random: I love this article: http://www.newsweek.com/2010/07/19/man-up.html?gt1=43002

Lately I'm having a hard time posting my blogs, it would be so much easier if a bunch of strangers read them that I would never see. lol

This is all rambling so I can try to understand how I am feeling, so sorry. Obviously you are never going to have everything in common with any one person, especially someone you date. But I think it is important to spend lots of time together when you are in a relationship, and how are you supposed to when you don't have things in common? Should you share all your interest? Should you pick up theirs? What if they don't want or need you to be interested in theirs because they already have others to enjoy those interests with? Is it important to have your own interests? Do you get new interests together? Or are you not meant to be together if you don't have the same hobbies and interests? Other couples seem to have no problem going off and doing their own things, but I don't like it. I feel like your partner should be your absolute best friend in the world, and shouldn't you do the things you love together? Shouldn't they want to do everything with you?

I guess what I am saying, after my training in interpersonal communication, is that I think I am now in the Differentiation stage of my relationship. I have learned all about the stages of relationships/friendships. They totally make sense and now I can always point out what stage I am in with everybody I know. To give you a mini lesson there are 10 stages that do not have to all be reached and often do not go in order. There is the integration stage, stage 4, most people never get here, this is where two people are absolutely in love, spend all their time together, and are basically one person. This is where they can tell each other anything. The stage after that is called the Differential stage. This is where the differences that you did not notice before, or thought were cute, start to appear and matter. This is the stage where both people stop hanging out with each other as much and regain their independence. This is usually where the relationship plateaus off and remains, but much of the time it is the first step on the long and painful road towards termination. I believe I am just entering this stage, and although I know it is usually inevitable and healthy, it is difficult for me. I am perfectly happy in the integration stage and don't have much interest in other friends.

I'm having a great summer and have so many things to look forward to. Relationships are not always easy...scratch that, they are never easy, but I feel so so lucky and blessed to have mine, and I guess we are all learning together how to be successful and make them last forever.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Breaking the Bitter

Sometimes you lose... Sometimes you don't get the promotion, sometimes corruption wins, sometimes you want something so bad and don't get it. We've all been rejected or turned down at one time in our life. We've all had people we trust (friends, family) let us down. We have all been disappointed with ourselves and this world. We've all hurt, we've all done wrong and been wronged. And you know something? Many of us let it win..and once again we lose.

When looking at an adult...whatever that means, it is often we can taste the edge of bitterness. Some people are so bitter. They are angry, they are frustrated, they have given up and have settled on the fact that this world sucks, and life is not fair.

Then you find a jewel. Someone who has been knocked down just as many times, but has gotten up one more time than the rest of us. Someone who just understands and knows this world is a beautiful place and there's a reason for everything. Not to be cliche but "When one door closes another one opens."

I want to be young forever. Not in the sense most people my age mean. I mean I don't want to get anger, and overwhelmed, bitter...I don't want to give up. I don't want to loose, and never try to win again. I always want to forgive, and not hold on to grudges and times that I got screwed over for the rest of my life. This giving up is what makes people old and miserable. I want to get back up every time. Often I let wrong things in the world keep me down. I want to be stronger than that. I have perfect vision now, I can see 20/15. Now I only need to work on seeing the beautiful things in this world more clearly. I will not let time and disappointments and people ruin me. This slowly letting things ruin us and shutting down is horrible.

I will take rejection and move on. I will make new dreams and goals till the day I die. I will stay healthy so I can go mountain biking when I am 70. I will forgive old friends that have hurt me, and open my heart up fully to new ones. The world is beautiful, there is always another day, another dream, and I will stand up every single time.

Thank you to those who always stay positive. Who constantly remind me of the beauty in this world. Who don't let it get you down or beat you. You will keep those wrinkles off my face, and the bitter out of my heart. Love, Carrie

Monday, July 5, 2010

Lucidity

Having the most wonderful days! I absolutely love my family. I am spending more time with friends, and enjoying my summer!

When my Grandpa was asked (in a lucid moment) what his life philosophy was, he said "Do the best you can, then be satisfied with what you can do." I love this. If you do your absolute best, that's all that matters. I can do better, and I will.

Life is crazy, sometimes frustrating, and hard, but beautiful, and I am thankful for mine.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Apples

Sometimes I don't know if I was made for a better world, or if I was made to better this world. The latter seems overwhelming. If one bad apple can spoil the bunch, then what chance does one good apple have in a bunch of bad apples? Maybe I'm looking at it wrong. Instead of just focusing on how one bad thing can easily corrupt everything, maybe I need to focus on one bad thing. Instead of focusing on bad and good, what matters is the number one, one person, can change the rest. That gives me hope. The thing is the world does not want to be changed, and I sure can't be apart of it as is, so maybe I was made for a different world. And maybe I was just made to be alone in this world. This is no good either because all that matters to me are the people in my life. And maybe instead of feeling like it's my responsibility to change the other apples, I need to step out of the barrel completely. Cut the bad out of my life, and search for the beautiful people that do exist everywhere even though they are hard to find. It's hard because when is it time to help others, and when is it time to know you can no longer let them pull you down? Removing the bad from you life seems like your on a boat and you have to remove all the weight so you can stay afloat, so you can save yourself, except that weight is people. Is it ok to save yourself? Isn't the honorable thing to go down with the ship, or risk your own life.