Today, not even kidding, in the middle of a song, my i-tunes switched to one of the few christian songs I have on my computer....and I jammed out to it! Well hello God, got the message, and yes I'd like to invite you back into my life.

Trying everyday to grow, find myself, and find what makes me happy. So far I figured out being healthy equals a must! Going to the gym, although starting slow, is so nice. I get to look in the mirror and see all the things I know shouldn't be there, but then I just smile because it feels good, and that's what matters.

I love writing poetry, nothing complicated, and I stopped trying to rhyme...okay maybe not poetry, but small clips of writing that quietly scream the thoughts in my head. I love it.

I dyed my hair. It's awesome. It sucks that your appearance affects your mood so much, but it does. If you are down, a physical change of any kind can definitely lighten your mood.

School's a little, I don't know, repetitive this semester, but I'm thriving on the books I am reading.

My world gets more and more beautiful everyday! I can't get over this season and all the colors. It takes my breathe away everywhere I look!

We are all lost in this life, but when I accept that and hold on to all the beautiful things, all that matters is finding what happiness means to you, even if you're unsure of who you are;

Tea with a friend
A bright red tree
A new hair color
A good book
A perfect cuddling position on the couch
A rainy day...

Too Excited to Write Well or Say Much...

Soo much to say! New place, new internship, new minor, new job...if I can find the time. lol.

I am so enjoying making my life all that I can right now. I am in love with my internship! It lets me do what I love most, helping people. I get to be the mentor I never had, someone these girls can aspire to and look up to, someone who is not Lindsey Lohan or Miley Cyrus. I am so excited to see these girls have a complete change of their self-concept. I cannot wait to struggle with them to win the fight against negative body image, low self-esteem, no direction, no inner strength or identity. I cannot wait to see what they teach me and how much they inspire a growth in me. Sure I'm not a morning person and haven't woken up this early in *cough* 4 years *cough*, but it's totally worth it. This may be what I want to do with my life: Teach our youth the importance of communication, and positive self-image, give them strengths, goals, and knowledge of consequences. I'm so excited I stumbled into this.

I'm proud of myself for the first time in a long time. I went through an interview, yikes, and got the job. Applied for my internship, stressful, and disciplined myself to go to all the training, and I keep finding ways to make school fun and exciting so I can finish on time. Self-confidence is so hard to come by and many of us get broken down constantly from the media, others and mostly from ourselves, and my internship has taught me how important it is to simply, like yourself.

Now if I could only get to the gym regularly! goodness!