Decisions

I find myself in this constant dichotomy, one between having this amazing career, or having a family. I'm sure I am not alone in this, it is probably one that many 21st century women face. Today we have choices, endless in fact, which is a wonderful prison to be in. Recently I have acquired a great opportunity in the workplace, and yet I find myself turning away from it. People around me find this preposterous. How could I possibly turn down such a great opportunity, a resume builder? And sometimes I listen. Sometimes I feel like if I turn this down for a life raising children I have failed. Failed myself and my high expectations, wasted my potential as a human being, and given up my life of adventure. Well for those around me and the conflicted fear absorbed voice in my head I say; I met my soulmate at 16, grown into a relationship that not only have I not seen duplicated, but not even fathomable by most, I double majored in college in four years with a 4.0, I've been to more countries by the age of twenty-three than most see in a lifetime. To these people I say; I find myself inspiring those around me, and not because of how impressive my job title is, or how much money I make, but because of who I am; my values, strength, lifestyle, and most importantly, my undying devotion to following my heart. It is always a risk to turn down opportunities, but one thing I will not risk is my happiness.