"All I can do is be me, whoever that is"
--Dillion

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I am a lot of things, sometimes it drives me insane,and I think too much, but at the end of the day I am happy with who I am. I spend most of my time trying to understand this life, creating the person I would like to be, and learning. I always appreciate the little things, and I try to be better than, and to make better, the bad things.

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Uncomfortable with Consistency

I have this nightmare, and now that I am out of school it is more real and prevalent then ever. I wake up every morning at the same time, have my cup of coffee, drive to my boring job, answer emails until lunch, where I will go to one of the same 5 restaurants and order the exact same thing. On Friday nights we rent a movie, and Sundays we sit around waiting for it all to start again.

In this nightmare I have been bitten by society and have become a zombie running through the motions of every identical day until they are so blended together in routine and dull-activities that I can't pull them apart.

People always say, "the only constant in life is change". Well change I can handle, it's things staying the same that terrifies me, and this too is a dangerous mentality to be in.

People get sucked into these routines because it is comfortable and maybe they are content, which is good, but to me, "The danger of an adventure is worth a thousand days of ease and comfort."  I want more than anything to be doing something different everyday, taste a new flavor, discover a new color, a new smell. The amazing thing is this world is filled with more than a lifetime worth of things to be discovered. Now that I know this I, although I appreciate my home and all of its' beauty, I cannot fall victim to a mediocre life, a meaningless job,a routine...

I want to feel ALIVE everyday.