There's so much to learn I can't stand it! Not that I'm overwhelmed with learning it all, I just got to figure out a way to keep it all in my head. I literally feel like plugging my ears so it can't spill out!
Nothing is a more wonderful feeling to me than learning...well maybe the joy lies in the thinking aspect.
Today I was once again taken to new depths. Asked what I believed on things that I could talk myself in circles with all day. Told that until I know where I stand it is difficult to know where I'm coming from, knowing my full identity, and understanding myself as a communicator.
I love this wonderful thing called learning! I love when I'm reminded it truly isn't about grades or tests, it's about the pure and simple fact that we have a mind, mix it with the existence of information, and we get a desire, nah, a thirst for knowledge.
We are capable of soo much more! Right now I'm so disappointed with how society is set up, kids go to college, bullshit their way through, and get a piece of paper so they can move on to what's "truly important", getting a job and becoming a consumer. Screw that! Knowledge is the destination for me, I'm not passing through it on my way to get a bigger paycheck. Why is humanity trained this way, why is society set up this way. Bettering my career, that's great but superficial, bettering myself..that will last forever.
About Me
- Care
- I am a lot of things, sometimes it drives me insane,and I think too much, but at the end of the day I am happy with who I am. I spend most of my time trying to understand this life, creating the person I would like to be, and learning. I always appreciate the little things, and I try to be better than, and to make better, the bad things.
Showing posts with label People. Show all posts
Showing posts with label People. Show all posts
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Breaking the Bitter
Sometimes you lose... Sometimes you don't get the promotion, sometimes corruption wins, sometimes you want something so bad and don't get it. We've all been rejected or turned down at one time in our life. We've all had people we trust (friends, family) let us down. We have all been disappointed with ourselves and this world. We've all hurt, we've all done wrong and been wronged. And you know something? Many of us let it win..and once again we lose.
When looking at an adult...whatever that means, it is often we can taste the edge of bitterness. Some people are so bitter. They are angry, they are frustrated, they have given up and have settled on the fact that this world sucks, and life is not fair.
Then you find a jewel. Someone who has been knocked down just as many times, but has gotten up one more time than the rest of us. Someone who just understands and knows this world is a beautiful place and there's a reason for everything. Not to be cliche but "When one door closes another one opens."
I want to be young forever. Not in the sense most people my age mean. I mean I don't want to get anger, and overwhelmed, bitter...I don't want to give up. I don't want to loose, and never try to win again. I always want to forgive, and not hold on to grudges and times that I got screwed over for the rest of my life. This giving up is what makes people old and miserable. I want to get back up every time. Often I let wrong things in the world keep me down. I want to be stronger than that. I have perfect vision now, I can see 20/15. Now I only need to work on seeing the beautiful things in this world more clearly. I will not let time and disappointments and people ruin me. This slowly letting things ruin us and shutting down is horrible.
I will take rejection and move on. I will make new dreams and goals till the day I die. I will stay healthy so I can go mountain biking when I am 70. I will forgive old friends that have hurt me, and open my heart up fully to new ones. The world is beautiful, there is always another day, another dream, and I will stand up every single time.
Thank you to those who always stay positive. Who constantly remind me of the beauty in this world. Who don't let it get you down or beat you. You will keep those wrinkles off my face, and the bitter out of my heart. Love, Carrie
When looking at an adult...whatever that means, it is often we can taste the edge of bitterness. Some people are so bitter. They are angry, they are frustrated, they have given up and have settled on the fact that this world sucks, and life is not fair.
Then you find a jewel. Someone who has been knocked down just as many times, but has gotten up one more time than the rest of us. Someone who just understands and knows this world is a beautiful place and there's a reason for everything. Not to be cliche but "When one door closes another one opens."
I want to be young forever. Not in the sense most people my age mean. I mean I don't want to get anger, and overwhelmed, bitter...I don't want to give up. I don't want to loose, and never try to win again. I always want to forgive, and not hold on to grudges and times that I got screwed over for the rest of my life. This giving up is what makes people old and miserable. I want to get back up every time. Often I let wrong things in the world keep me down. I want to be stronger than that. I have perfect vision now, I can see 20/15. Now I only need to work on seeing the beautiful things in this world more clearly. I will not let time and disappointments and people ruin me. This slowly letting things ruin us and shutting down is horrible.
I will take rejection and move on. I will make new dreams and goals till the day I die. I will stay healthy so I can go mountain biking when I am 70. I will forgive old friends that have hurt me, and open my heart up fully to new ones. The world is beautiful, there is always another day, another dream, and I will stand up every single time.
Thank you to those who always stay positive. Who constantly remind me of the beauty in this world. Who don't let it get you down or beat you. You will keep those wrinkles off my face, and the bitter out of my heart. Love, Carrie
Thursday, May 20, 2010
I'm Such A Buzz Kill
Tonight I am disappointed with the world and I'm sorry. lol.
There are many times in my life when I ask myself "Why do I care so much!?" I really wish I didn't. I want to make the world a better place so bad but no one seems to think there are problems where I see them. I should seriously stop caring and join the freaking world. But I really can't stand watching people poison their body, their minds, and watching them poison this earth. It's so dumb, believe me I know, but I wish people would stop drinking pop, stop eating terribly, drinking alcohol, stop littering, stop watching so much T.V. just would care more about themselves and the world around them. I feel like if they don't care about their bodies or respect themselves then why should I..but I freaking do! Goodness I see Pot places popping up more often then Starbucks and it makes me so sad. A part of me wishes alcohol and drugs did not exist at all. I am fine with the drinking age and would be fine if it was even older. But another part of me thinks it's a free country and it only makes since for that stuff to be legal. It really is more true to the American ideals to be legal. I just feel like there is so much fun to be had without that stuff, and they are not solving in problems, if anything they create many more!
Anyway I guess I'm sad. I wish people were stronger, more creative on their own without drugs, and respected their bodies more. I want to be good and healthy so bad, why don't other people?
There are many times in my life when I ask myself "Why do I care so much!?" I really wish I didn't. I want to make the world a better place so bad but no one seems to think there are problems where I see them. I should seriously stop caring and join the freaking world. But I really can't stand watching people poison their body, their minds, and watching them poison this earth. It's so dumb, believe me I know, but I wish people would stop drinking pop, stop eating terribly, drinking alcohol, stop littering, stop watching so much T.V. just would care more about themselves and the world around them. I feel like if they don't care about their bodies or respect themselves then why should I..but I freaking do! Goodness I see Pot places popping up more often then Starbucks and it makes me so sad. A part of me wishes alcohol and drugs did not exist at all. I am fine with the drinking age and would be fine if it was even older. But another part of me thinks it's a free country and it only makes since for that stuff to be legal. It really is more true to the American ideals to be legal. I just feel like there is so much fun to be had without that stuff, and they are not solving in problems, if anything they create many more!
Anyway I guess I'm sad. I wish people were stronger, more creative on their own without drugs, and respected their bodies more. I want to be good and healthy so bad, why don't other people?
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Old Friends
Ahh! I love old friends, they are so much fun! No matter if you talk to them once a day, once a week, or once a year, they will always hold a part of you that none of your new friends will ever know. It's amazing really how many people hold a part of us, and how we hold a part of other people. We all end up with so many people affecting our lives and shaping who we are, and we will never know how many lives we have affected. It makes me try to always be aware of what I am doing. Just giving a smile to a stranger can often brighten their day. I know there are people who have affected my life that do not know I exist. Like strangers who do random acts of kindness and restore my faith in humanity, or that girl in Biology class who was so cute she influenced the way I began to dress. Sometimes I think people are ridiculous and just evil. But not today. Today I realize none of us are all that different, and you will never know whose life you could be thrown into next.
I'm almost done with a book I started just today. Some short stories by Amy Bloom. I'll write about it when I am finished. lol.
Daily Concern: I am really conflicted about getting a tattoo, I've gone back and forth for 3 years. I should just make a decision and be happy with it! The young exciting side of me says go for it! The mature and future-aware side of me says, you change your mind everyday, what r u going to think when you are 80!?
Love ~Care~
I'm almost done with a book I started just today. Some short stories by Amy Bloom. I'll write about it when I am finished. lol.
Daily Concern: I am really conflicted about getting a tattoo, I've gone back and forth for 3 years. I should just make a decision and be happy with it! The young exciting side of me says go for it! The mature and future-aware side of me says, you change your mind everyday, what r u going to think when you are 80!?
Love ~Care~
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